So I Think I'm Fickle

  I'm just going to throw this out there - and by no means is this in any way some complicated attempt to prove my deepness or enlightenment, good news for you - but I think I might be overly fickle.
  I was just thinking about things, which rabbit-trailed (as always) into other things.  That other final thing was a history of people I've fancied.  And as I looked back on each person, I thought, "What was I even thinking?"  I'm sure this is universal, and by no means am I considering myself to be some special snowflake in this.  I just think this has happened a lot, and it's one of those things that makes me think that I shouldn't even bother becoming attached to anybody.
  Because history has shown that I become incredibly fond of somebody, then grow tired of him, then eventually grow to dislike him greatly.  Example: this one person who I liked immensely during Bible college, then sorta left him behind as I moved on with life - someone mentioned him or something on Facebook, and I thought, Hm, wonder how he's doing, so I looked him up for kicks.  And I found that he has a website.  I also found his writing on said website to be absolutely insufferable.  I actually wanted to make a special road trip just to slap him for writing something so intolerably awful.  I considered posting a sample of his writing, but his page seems to be tampered with, so now it's in Latin.  And the worst part is that I thought he had just finally gone off the deep end, and I wasn't surprised.  But I've digressed.
   Point is, I'm fickle.  I guess it's not so bad, since I now recognize this in myself.  But I suppose this flaw in myself is what's kept me from establishing any real, long-lasting relationships with anybody (this mainly applies to platonic relationships at the moment, since I've always turned down any romantic opportunities that I've been offered right at the get-go.)  Throughout my life, pretty much every person I've been really tight with has been sort of left behind.  And it's because I grow bored or tired with that person once I find myself in a new place or situation.  Then any reunion, accidental or purposeful, is just awkward as hell.
  This applies to old BFFs, people from any of the schools or churches I've attended (the exception being one family from my old church - they own a comic shop, and they're great), and coworkers/managers (I don't ever go back to places I used to work.)

  I wonder how many other people are like this.  I also wonder how many people are so ridiculous that they would place such a pointless post on the Internet for all to see.  Hm.